왕시혜: 2016

I'm here again to rant about my stories happening in me. I wish the creep in class could really let go of me. Why I call him a creep? Because 1st day of school and also 1st day of orientation day. We are taking class photo and supposingly I'm should be Last person on the right. But then there is this handicap and one of his buddy came to sit down with me just to squeeze in. So this handicap guy I thought it was nothing let him to sit beside me. However I was wrong, he pretend to put his crutches between us but his hand was pretending to carry his clutches but actually he was touching my thigh and then when the person said 1, 2, 3 to take photo. His whole body was leaning towards my body. So I have to lean towards my girl friend. So my girl friend asked why I was so close to her just now so I told her that the guy beside me was misbehaving. Apparently i don't hate any handicap because my Secondary School CCA was Red Cross Youth, and we also have been sent out to school to play with people at IMH (Institute of Mental Health) and even take care of elderly. but i really felt super uncomfortable letting you to touch me like this because I felt like it's a sexual harassment to me. Then during lesson, he always turned around and look at my direction. I felt that it kind of distract me in class. Well I'm still kind of able to cope it. But when he come near I just got this fear and makes me want to run away when ever he comes near to me. There was once during my lesson break, me and my friend wanted to go toilet and my friend was in front of me. So we have to walk pass the creep in order to reach the class front door. So after my friend walk pass he did not do anything to her but he almost touched my thigh again, but luckily I was fast enough to avoid him from touching. When ever I was talking to a guy friend he will stare at us intensely. I'm really scared. Who can help me like seriously. It's a torture to me like everyday seeing him. Some of my classmate will even tease how scared i am when he came near to me. There was once, I heard his crutches sound i was so scared that i stood up while i was sleeping during my lesson break time and that class mate of mine, said you scared right, upon hearing the sound that is made when he is walking using the crutches. I do agree that i am afraid. Too add on, when i was talking/sitting with a bunch of guys in class and I left my phone charging at the back of class, so 1st he went to the back of class where i place my phone to charge and i was so afraid that i don't even dare to walk there to take my phone back, so i asked my guy friend to help me take since my girl friend didn't want to help me take. He did help me take my phone back but he tease me like he pretend to use my phone to touch his ass. So i was kind of pissed off with his action. But at least he help me to take my phone back. After that awhile later he even came over to my side when I was talking to other classmate. So I was so scared that i was trembling and holding my girl friend arms and i almost teared up. Literally no one know the phobia of it. It's like even if I report this case to the police, he will still won't be charged, because he is a handicap. I even told the my Class advisor but it still did not help much... all he say probably because he likes me and told me to stay away from him. I'm okay with you like me, but the thing is you don't have to touch my thigh which is a sensitive part of my body. it is also very scary that you are like literally chasing me everyday. My guy friend asked me to give him another chance, but what if I give him another chance and he used that chance to sexual harass me again? In addition, I don't think any girls want to get sexual harassed again right? once is really enough. I'm tired. Always getting all this weird people around me. Furthermore recently he even came to sit at my friend seat just to get near me. I was so afraid that I stood up and run out of the class. Then after I left the class not long, I receive a text from my other classmate and he told me he left my friend seat already and he told me I could come back to class already. So I went back to class. However not long after I came back to class, that creep once again came near to my place. I was so afraid that I sent some "signal" to my classmate who texted me to come back class that he is back again and right behind me. So he told me to sit beside him. So I did. Then the creep was staring at us, and I was hiding myself with my jacket, after seeing that he left. I was like... finally I can go back to my seat and sit. Like thank god that my classmate was helpful that time.WHO CAN SAVE ME FROM THAT CREEP?! In my mind i was thinking about whether should i drop out from my current course , just to avoid that creep but it will be too stupid to do so, and i don't wanna waste anymore time on my studies because anyone or anything. I also don't want to make my mum worried because of the creep. No one know how much i am afraid of the creep. Its just something no one would understand. T^T I am going on a hard time so badly that i wish i could end this any faster.

To my reader, if you are really reading this, Thanks for hearing my rant. :)

In the very end you still did not disappoint me. I almost cried because you wasn't paying attention to me, until the moment it was about to end I leaned on my friend looking sadly then you looked at me showing that actually you cares. So I told you, I am about to cry with my hand language and requesting you to the a heart sign for me like once and you really did. So I smiled, then you smiled too then you continue to answer your question from MCs. Thank you for at least cheering me up when I was about to cry. At least you let me know you do notice me and not left my question hanging there. I know I sounds stupid for crying over an idol who is not going to remember me after he returns to Korea. But every idol that I love, does have a story behind it for me to love. I don't simply or just blindly like them.